当过兵的爷爷

人的一生坎坷太多，但往往在绝境拐角处又是一个春天。就是这样起起落落，却又不失温暖。只是需要一个点灯的人罢了。

爷爷是个当过兵的老干部，我们家门墙上也挂着属于他的荣誉。"优秀家庭“”先进党员“，在别人眼中他是严毅果敢的，在我这他就只是个长辈。爷爷不爱笑，做事死板说一不二，现在老了更加唠叨。平时啥都不怕的他现在怨天尤人，原本像大树一样的支撑着我们全家现在却是那个样子。

他是我的启蒙老师,父母常年在外打工,留给我的只有像云一样的幻想罢了。渐渐地也习惯了只有爷爷奶奶的生活。他让我扔掉了属于小女孩的娇气，变得阳光灿烂。

那年秋天，我的命运也似秋天一样，本来是和小伙伴们一起在院子里玩耍，有一个大哥哥骑着自行车绕着我们转，命运的转轴也转了起来。另一个小哥哥用竹竿做的弓箭射到的那个大哥哥的轮子里，恰好撞到了我的眼睛上。鲜红般的记忆，只觉得世界安静了，鸟也不叫了，河水上安然无波。绝望就在那一瞬间......

后来才知道爷爷发了疯一样的带我冲到小诊所，那是第一次见到金刚石一样的爷爷慌了脚，当时医生不建议打麻药因为离眼球实在太近了，如果强行到麻药可能会导致失明。爷爷自然冒不起这个风险，毕竟我的一生还很长......“小迷啊，听爷爷的的话，缝起伤口就不疼了。”那应该是我人生第一次做手术吧，不带麻药的那种。至今无法忘怀的。

现在想想，眼角上的疤痕，心中五味陈杂。是的他教会了我背他的手机号码，教我识字，教我做人。这种恩情还不了，水越聚越多，最后误以为是理所应当。

爷爷身体不好，早年烟吸多了，又加上奔波劳累。身体大不如前，也耍起了脾气，说自己时日不多，要怎么了。家中人一贯知道他的脾气，便也不睬他。爸爸更是冷嘲热讽，我知道爸爸不是真心的，可是当一个人无助时，就是希望有人能陪着他。妈妈时常和我说爷爷不我认为的那么好，背后有我不知道的事。可我就是不想听，他们不懂那种不同于父母爱的情感，也不明白那种心情。我只是想保留而已。

我就是这样，无法理解，对爷爷饱含了太多情感。最后却不知道自己还能做什么，时光依旧，岁月静好。你的爱我慢慢还......

英语翻译：

People's life is too many frustrations, but often in the corner of the corner is a spring. That's how it goes up and down, but it's warm. We just need someone to light it. GRANDPA was an old cadre who had served in the army, our door wall also hangs belongs to his honor. "Outstanding Family" "advanced party member" , in the eyes of others he is resolute and resolute, in my here he is just an elder. GRANDPA does not like to laugh, things inflexible, now the old more nagging. Usually do not fear of what he is now complaining, the original like a tree like the support of our family is now like that. He was my first teacher. My parents worked away from home all the year round, leaving me with nothing but a cloud-like fantasy. Gradually, I got used to living with only my grandparents. He made me throw away my girlish charm and turn into a sunny day. That autumn, my fate is the same as the autumn, was playing with friends in the yard, there is a big brother riding a bicycle around us, the fate of the rotating shaft also turned up. Another little brother hit the big brother in the wheel with a bamboo bow and hit me right in the eye. Red-like memory, only feel the world quiet, birds do not call, the river water without waves. And in that moment of despair... Later I learned that my grandfather rushed me to the clinic like crazy. It was the first time I saw him like a diamond. The doctor did not recommend anesthesia because it was too close to the eyeball Of course GRANDPA couldn't take the risk, after all my life is still very long ...... "small fan AH, listen to GRANDPA's words, sewing up the wound does not hurt. " That should be my first operation, without anesthetic that kind. That I'll never forget. Now that I think about it, the scar on the corner of my eye, I have mixed feelings. Yeah, he taught me how to memorize his cell phone number, how to read, how to be a person. This kind of kindness can not return, more and more water, and finally mistakenly taken for granted. GRANDPA is not in good health. He smoked too much in his early years, and he was tired from traveling. The body is not as good as before, also played the temper, said oneself time is not much, want how. The family had always known his temper and had ignored him. Dad is more cynical, I know dad is not sincere, but when a person helpless, is the hope that someone can accompany him. My mom always told me that GRANDPA wasn't as good as I thought he was, that there was something behind it that I didn't know. But I just do not want to hear, they do not understand that different from the feelings of parental love, do not understand that mood. I just want to keep it. That's just me. I don't get it. I have too much affection for GRANDPA. In the end, I don't know what I can do, the time is still, the years are still good. Your love I slowly return... .